I was thinking about friends and foes, or friends or foes, (whatever you wanna call it) today, again…, and I’ve realized many things, especially today.
(Sometimes I think bad luck comes as a triad, three at a time for the cost of none)
Purposes…
As I progress through life, with my handicaps and with depression, yes still here…, not to discuss more about it, since it’s not the motive of this post, I found, again, an old friend that works at a place near my new home and decided to do what I always do when I see an old friend. Exchanged contact information to invite her to a coffee and talk about what had passed, in the meanwhile, we were apart.
With apart i mean not talking to each other for a long, long time, like, for example five years.
But, not to vary, and if you are wondering…
Love is on a boat of itself and does not let me in, still loving the same person for what, 1 year give or take, and only rejections?! It’s fate! Or not.
Health, same or worse place, maybe I should play a bit and tell, trustfully, I’m maybe at the 30º position of 70 total. Mental health… always complicated.
(And I’m here trying to simplify….)
Family, it’s a monster in itself that I won’t tackle, not anytime soon, first, my health…
Habits… Friends or Foes?
This is a habit of mine that I’ve got to get rid of, since, many friends that I had, and not the close ones, are now foes that pretend that it’s “OK” to exchange that kind of information and then, at the very last moment, without saying anything otherwise, come saying, “I thought you understood that I didn’t want that” or something like those words.
Maybe I’m still foolish to believe that the old, not close, friendships could be revived and pursued. Or maybe the world is crazy. One or another, I still don’t understand the kinds of situations and information that come with them.
Before guns and shots are fired, let me explain why some sentences below are written as is. Many of these so-called friends are in the situation below.
And let’s be reasonable and have at least a bit of thought.
With points!!
- You are not passing through any disease;
- You are not making kinds of jobs because you love it, or enjoy it, or trying to enjoy it;
- You crave the next paycheck at the middle or the beginning of the month, then at least there are more 2 or 3 weeks till the next paycheck;
- You are like a robot, just clocking in and out without enjoying life as you please;
- You fake your entire, or most of your, social life to try to mimic an impression that you have a good life;
That can be a definition of a miserable life, let’s be fair and call things by their names. Life is meant to be lived with connections, and that is already complicated. Just connecting to your true self, or with nature, you get the point by now… But giving up on people who want to make their life and yours more enjoyable, maybe it’s a bit foolish.
And let’s be real, revealing the truth about a person it always fun for me, depressing, but fun for some twisted or overcrowded or sharp minds! It’s like a new star in the sky, and we want to see or discover when it appeared, but I digress… (know me more! Click me!)
Traveling to my Memory lane!
(I went a bit overboard with this title, sorry…)
I still remember when I worked at McDonald’s and loved the customer and team interactions. Made many friends, both in the team and with customers.
I was, almost, all the time with a smile on my face. Yes, I was working for the money, but the experiences I had with them were more valuable. The salary increased bit by bit, but in the end, I wished I had more great moments, even if my salary decreased from what I was receiving to the initial salary.
But, as everyone knows, everything that is good ends fast.
Back to the present, are they friends or foes or another thing?
(Get the reference? Hum?)
Maybe I should elaborate more before taking these kinds of risks, or just let these persons have their miserable lives as they have it. (Or, like it, I’m not a weirdo….).
I tried to reconnect over 5 years with 3 persons, the last one this month (May!) and, not to vary, always the same response.
Finalizing before taking a lifetime…
Yes, I know that I will find many more of these friends and since I am retrying to rebuild my social life, many of these kinds of people will reveal themselves. But at the end of the day, I’m not the one choosing if they are Friends or Foes, they are since they push away before letting anything or anyone close.
