Every time I wake up, I always have some hope. But lately, my will is off, and I’m facing problems with a new attitude.
Broken will…
Yes, many things change when you grow up and that is not the reason for me to be in this state. I’m In this state because I’m already 27, have no girlfriend, no job, with depression, and with a brain meltdown.
I try every day to wake up with a smile and keep a positive vibe to face my days but appears to me that I was born in the wrong decade and everything that I do is like bottling air into a can. Yes, a stupid example to explain that I feel that what I’m doing is not being transposed into the real world, and due to my mental health, I keep feeling that emotion of emptiness.
The last time I felt complete was when I met a certain person, and due to time and circumstances, she left my life. I know that that might be transferring our problems to another thing or cause, but I felt happier. And I just wanted to feel like that every single day. I was in love, but she didn’t care about it and might never care.
No will, no energy…
Is there really a cure for depression and for a mental breakdown? I always heard that depression it’s a thing for the whole life, a brain meltdown? Never heard of a cure for it. But somehow, I’m hopeful that I might cure the meltdown and stabilize my mental health.
One thing that we shouldn’t play is mental health, but I’ve reached the point where I want to tackle it and just cure myself. I know that it is a process but I just want to get over it and start the things I should have already done. My life cannot be always me being depressed and faking that I’m fine.
New Attitude.
I really want to cure myself, and that might start with a new attitude, my will might be broken but I have to keep fighting and start to do things I’ve told myself that’s better to be in my safe area than doing stuff, I have to start to, socialize more, explore, leave my house.
I know that being always at home might be my refuge, but I also think that it might be one of the causes that don’t allow me to go forward. My mental health, if being at home is bad for me, I have to leave and, at least, get some fresh air at least once a week, socialize once a week, and so much more.
The problem with socializing is finding people that are worthy of your time, not people that fake it and then leave you. Nowadays it is rare to find worthwhile people, the people below 25 years old are getting a bit crazy, men and women are going to clubs only to have a one-night stand, and that only causes my will to become even more scarce.
