This month and the previous one were a bunch of surprises for me and my family… and I couldn’t be happy till now, since I don’t know anything about the future… This month, and the previous one, I am moving to a new home.

This all started in December, our journey to find a new home and I was a bit preoccupied about it, but now, I’m just stressed out since there is too much stuff that needs to be moved from the old house to this one. And all the things that are happening to my life, it’s a scary situation to be on my feet. but I’ll find a way to process this and move on with my life.

As you might know, from the birthday retrospective, I’m still with legal issues concerning my old job, but that’s another theme for the future, when all it’s said and done in court and there is no more time for that I’ll make an update to keep you all informed about what happened, but i won’t disclose what company was.

Moving to a new home…

This always comes with a caveat, or you lose space, or family members start to change their paradigm in relation to the family, or we lose friends, but nothing I’m not habituated so far, the last time I moved, was from Relva to São Sebastião, and now, from São Sebastião to Arrifes. The first move, i lost connection with friends and I’m prepared for the same thing again, since I’ve learned that it’s only natural for that to happen.

This journey started in December, when my landlord said that we needed to leave the house since her sister was coming back to Portugal – Azores – São Miguel and it took almost 2 months for us to find a new home, but fortunately, we found one that’s appropriate for us, me my mom and my step-father, at least for a while.

Till now, we have been moving all our stuff to the new home and organizing it.

Struggles

As you might know, i struggle with new environments and moving from the old house to a new home is making me anxious to the point that i must take medication to calm myself down to the point that i can do anything. otherwise, i would be doomed inside my head and with my thoughts. That said, it’s not easy to control a mind that has gone rogue with depression and other things.

But every day is a new day, and I must preserve the rest of my mind to be able to do what i love the most. that unfortunately I’m not able to do right now since the court sessions take too much from myself.